"You can do anything you put your mind to."
I remember it being said to me over and over again. An artist doodling in the confined spaces of the maths exercise book or an author writing a ten-page novel in the back of a car. It's funny how those words never meant much at the time, simply because they were said so often. Being told that I was capable of anything and everything seemed like a natural part of my existence.
Seemed - past tense - being the operative word.
Don't get me wrong, I've had the best time growing up. I've had some amazing adventures and met some of the best people. Yet it's left me with a sort of emptiness, an almost homesickness for somewhere I never quite got to.
I've never really had a true, clean cut goal. Despite being ambitious, I've never really been able to channel that ambition to carve out a clear target. I've envied those friends that seemed to follow their chosen pathway with ease and have ended up doing the thing they always wanted to do. I wish I could have been the person that studied the thing they love and slots into a life that suits them, even if they didn't know it existed.
It's strange how at eighteen, you're really no different physically or mentally, and yet you're forced to make all of these decisions that dictate the rest of your life. That said, it's comforting how we're all ultimately in the same boat, trying not to capsize.
Although I'm far from unhappy, I'm far from where I want to be. I think I just need to work out just where that is.
Do you wish you had a map to take you through life?
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Aside from looking gorgeous in your photos, I believe it's never too late to start dreaming and doing exactly what you want to do. I only decided to take on my dreams when I was 28 years old and I haven't looked back since. Just do it or you'll regret it!
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Sometimes I wish I had a map, I think it'd be far easier, but other times I think you just have to carry on persevering and see where it takes you :) x
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Love your shirt and those shoes are insane! I went through a similar thing - eighteen is such a funny age and having to make decisions is really overwhelming. The comforting thing is that a lot of people feel the same. My mum always says everyone is winging it and knowing that has helped a lot. Best of luck with everything! xx
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honestly don't ever feel rushed to decide what you want to do with your life!! enjoy your time and passions and you don't always need a plan, sometimes winging it is just fine:)
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Nice post and lovely top. :)
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